crazy week

so this week has been crazy, Saturday was my sons 7th birthday party. It was awesome,he had so much fun and it was great to see him so happy. i still can not believe my lil baby is 7. time really dose go by so fast. Then Monday was my 8th anniversary, we didn't do anything special. just hung out together, being broke sucks ass. then on Tuesday i had my tubes tied. what a relief that was. im still pretty sore and tired but so happy i had it done. two kids is enough for me. my son gavin is 3 months old today, i cant believe its been 3 months. and im still fat as fuck! lol .

SO FAST!!!

Ok so, my son is turning 7 tomorrow. 7!!!! where the hell did the time go?? anybody?? im only 26 but i feel 50, my kids make me feel so old! He no longer needs me to tie his shoes, help him brush his teeth, or hold his hand, which makes me so sad. He still want me to tuck him in, read him books,and put bandaids on his boo boo's. :) but i feel like in a small way im losing my baby. My first baby. :(
I know one day i may look back on this and think how stupid i am for feeling this way. I just love him so much, and im having such a great time watching him grow up, a part of me dosent want him to get older, but the smart part of me, wants him to turn 18 and get out of the house!! lol no, just kidding. kinda. :)
well, i guess i just want to say is HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!! mama loves you!!!

me myself and I

Well, im completely new to this blogging thing. So i figured i would start my first blog about myself. well, what can i say about myself, i dont like talking about myself,lol, which is why i'm completely surprised im even writing this. i grew up in Colorado springs, the most beautiful place on earth!! :) my hole family lives there, which when i think about it, it's probably a good thing im here in Utah and they are in Colorado. they can be a bit much sometimes, and there always seems to be some kind of drama going on, ug, im so not a drama queen, cant stand that shit.
Im married to eric, the most patience, wonderful, supportive,awesome husband ever! and he is pretty funny. Big plus! Im kinda a goofy girl, i love to be sarcastic, and just have a good time. But, at the same time, i can be painfully shy, which comes off as me being a rude bitch, but that's not that case at all. i just have problems talking to new people, but once i feel comfortable with them, i let my full self come out! i have issues trusting women. i don't really have any girlfriends. i would love to, but every time i open up, STAB,right in my back. i guess that's something i need work on. i would consider my self a very loyal friend, i would do anything for you.

I have two sons. phenix 7 and gavin under a year. i just had him in June. what a wonderful happy baby he is. im so blessed to have my boys. my son phenix is such a lil man, im so proud of him.( like any mother would say about her kids) lol. He is so smart,and growing so fast. i had him very young.18, i know i know, SLUT!!! lol but yea. im still with the father and we are happier then ever. so i guess god knew what he was doing after all!

we have been in the air force for 3 years, its been great. i have meet some amazing people.

i truly love my life, and i thank god everyday for blessing me with everything i have!